My Dearest Abner,
How I miss you!! I never thought in a million years it would this hard!!But what gives me comfort is to know that you're well and happy now and waiting for me. You gave me memories that I shall NEVER forget and throughout this process of healing and writing, I will share with everyone who visits your page.
Abner, I need to tell you this because this is VERY hard for me..I'm sorry I left you at the vet by yourself.I wish a thousand times that I had that to do over again , I would have never left you. I went out to write a check and I thought I was going to die, I had to, at that time, get out of there. Dr. Knott was telling me all this stuff and I kept telling her to wait, that I didnt know what to do!!!!!I will not ever walk into that place again.I kept telling her to please wait, I could'nt think because my boy needed me.I want you to know how sorry I am when I didnt wake up enough when you got on my bed and memowed for me.
I will write later my Abner, my booner........my NapperI love you
Mama
Sept.23,2011
Its me again Baby.. Did you know that you were born in a bedroom closet? Well, you were with five other sibings...In Natchitoches, Louisiana...Your mom was a Siamese, medium size and I never got to see your dad but I know he was a big boy because my boy was a Big boy, were'nt you? I remember driving you back to Houston, I lived in Missouri City, Texas then..I had you in a cardboard box and you hollared all the way! LOL Mama even stopped at a convenice store and bought you a bisquit, milk and I warmed it in the microwave..Needless to say, that didnt work...so when we reached Houston, we stopped at a Petsmart and got you all kinds of goodies, even canned milk and a eye dropper.......We got home and got settled and we introduced ourselves to each other and a Bond , like no other, was in the making. You got your belly full, cuddled with your new Mom..you would wake me about every 3 hours and I would fill you up with milk, one eyedropper full and we'd sleep. As you got alittle older, you would start sucking on my left ear lobe,of course that was fine with me so with you cuddled in your ear lobe position, we'd sleep. I was working then so I think you slept all day and when I came home , you were so proud to see me dancing sideways, hopping and running. We'd play, Mama would get on the floor and play hide and go seek......We'd go see Grandma Con on weekends and you would come with me, sitting on the back of my seat while I drove sucking on my ear lobe...I didnt mind.....Everyone would see you when we stopped at a red light or passed us and they'd point and laugh at us.....I didnt mind!! Sept 24, 2011 Hi Mama's sweet boy.......I miss you mama.So many people have come to see you and left me nice, loving and thoughful words to help me with my heart............I love you my lil' Abner........I would give anything if I could hold you one more time...Play and have a great time at Rainbow Bridge baby, meet all kinds of friends........Lily sends his love and he misses you too...at night especially, he has a low and deep meow and I think hes looking for you......I threw all your insulin and syringes away.I didnt have the heart to take them to the shelter.......I did take your carrier with your name on it.........I told them it was from you.......I have a memorial place at home for you I'll let you go play.Have you met all your new friends, give Coosie a special hug and kiss for me...I love you Anber, Mama will come and meet you when God says its time I love you , Mama
Sept. 26,2011
Hi Baby,
It's Mama again........I miss you!! I love you!! Are you playing and making new friends?
Did you like the bowl of Lucky Charms Spencer left for you? He and Jackson were excited to see Lil' NAP again!! The boys love you and Jackson is playing baseball and football. Hes playing football now so he left you a football....Sometimes my heart handles your going away to the Rainbow Bridge and sometimes, I'm selfish, I want you here with me. I find myself looking up sometimes to see if youre waving........I know your my lil' Angel, you were my Angel here on earth and youre my Angel now.....So they have Twinkies and Spam at the Rainbow Meadow.....?
I'm going now but I'll be back...I love you my sweet little boy, Love Mama
Sept. 27, 2011
Hi My Sweet Boy,
How is my Baby boy today? I know you're playing with your new friends .... Have you met Zander, Jamie 1 and Jamie 2? I know your big ole belly is full......Abner.... Jackson , Spencer and I went to see you the other night.....we saw the stars in the sky and we all agreed on one star that was you.Our Angel looking over us.........
I was talking to Aunt Margie this morning. We were reminising about you and she was telling me of the time that she was staying with you while I was working. She decided that a spray bottle would help calm you down. Well, Needless to say, even then as a kitten, you were your own man, free willed and you knew you were the man of this home. Not only did the spray bottle not work but my baby boy was drenching!! We still laugh at that!Remember when I would take a long nice hot bath and you would sit on the edge of the tub and we would play with the dropets of water...we had wonderful times didn't we Nap??
I love you my Baby boy, I'm still selfish, I want you here with me but the friends that I've made through YOU.......they're helping me!!
My heart is bursting with love for you........Do you see my tears? You can lick them dry...I don't mind
Love,
Mama
October 5, 2011
Good Morning My Baby Boy,
It's cool this morning, Lily is on the patio and I know you would be if you were still home with me. I know now Abner that it was time to let you go, you were tired. Mama loves you so very much!! I didn't want to give you any more insulin,e that it was time to let you go to Him.
I've met so many wonderful people that have lost their " fur babies" too. They understand my pain.William is coming this weekend to visit. I'm looking forward to his visit.....I love you my baby boy I will come back soon.Play like you've never played before and wait for me....Mama
Monday Oct. 10,2011
Hi my precious one,
I first want you to know that you're not forgotten and are missed!! Gosh, are you missed........everything I do or see, it reminds me of you. I KNOW in my heart that you're where your suppose to be. The pain of losing you Abner is still here and I think some of it will always be here, but each day, I think, it gets better. Just to come her to your site on Rainbow Bridge is healing bacause this is the place I can go to be with you!!
I've made many friends because of you and I'm thankful.....
Abner, alot of times when I'm driving, I think I do it then for various reasons but one of them would be no one can hear me, I sing our silly songs that I would always sing to you.....!!I tear up sometimes but thats okay......I've cried alot of tears for my boy and propbably a whole bunch more!! You're worth them!!
I'm going now Booner.........Play like you've never played before, eat like its your last meal, We don't have to worry about shots or anything anymore
Mama will be back soon my baby boy
I love you, Mama
October 15, 2011
Hi My Love.Hows Mama's Booner today?
Have you been playing, napping and eating?? I miss you so much Booner!! I still sleep with your pig house shoe, I feel close to you and I talk to you all the time Mama.....
I went to Jackson's last football game this afternoon, they lost but they're having fun...... Lily is out on the patio............He misses his Bro too.........I love him Booner but its not like having you here.....
I love you Baby, I'll come back soon
All my love to the very BEST of all friends....Mama
October 18, 2011
Hi my Baby boy Abner,
I love saying your name..........I miss you its a perfect fall day..wish you were with me..we'd be keeping each other warm.......we cuddled good didn't we Napper...........I know in my heart that you're happy and whole again......I believe you're where you're suppose to be....that keeps me going.........Can you hear our song playing? I love it.........I want so much to to feel you again............I'll be at the Rainbow Bridge to get you when God takes me.......
I love and miss you my baby boy...
Mama loves
you!!
October 23, 2011
Mi my lil' Abner,
Mama still misses you........I don't know if having this page is helping me or not....I know you're pain free but I'm not quite there as far as feeling any better.........I think of you so much ..it seems like each and every second.
I'll write more later........I need to breathe
I love you Abner,,,,,,,,,Lily too....Mama
November 4, 2011
Hi my Little Napper
You were a little fellow with alot of names weren't you? I'm sad today, my cousin Charles died in his sleep Monday night. I didn't go to the funeral because of many reasons. I MISS you so much Abner........I don't think its gonna get better......I miss you jumping up on my bed and laying on my pillow......you're big butt got all of mama's pillow but I didn't mind.
You didn't memow much because your brother did enough for both of you........every time I opened a can of wet food, I look around for my baby.............I know you're having fun and are whole again.....Look for me Abner, I will cross that bridge and wait for you to jump up high and I will grab you.........talk about kisses!! We'll be wet all over, you too.
I love you Abner.......you completed my life and gave me unconditioned loved, we laughed and played. Remember, when I'd get your carrier out.......you'd start slinking........I still smile..
Until we're together again
I love you my baby, Mama xoxoxoxooxox
November 15, 2011
Hi My Little Abner,
Mama hasn't forgotten about you.......theres not a minute of each day that you're not in my thoughts.....Its been 9 months baby and my heart is still breaking........I love you Booner and I miss you!!
I just down right miss you..........Are you having fun palying with your friends, new and old? Look for me Abner, Mama will be there to get you.....
I love you My sweet little boy..........Mamaxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoox
November 26, 2011
Happy Thanksgiving My Abner,
I thought of you while driving to Galveston for Thanksgiving.........last year you were here with me. I miss you so much Abner.........I looked at the ocean and thought of you, I looked up in the sky Thanksgiving night, I'll NEVER forget my boy..........You brought so much love to my life and now I live on in your memory...........
December 6, 2011
The year is almost gone.........its finally cold here I know you aren't cold......I miss and love you so very much Abner......I didnt think this would hurt so bad.........I'm okay and Lily too, we just take one day at a time. I saw a star and thought of you the other night.......I'll come back and visit real soon baby.......I love you!!!!! Mama
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December 19,2011
My Dearest Abner,
It hurts me to come here but I have to spend some time with you. I love and miss you so much Abner!!! My heart still aches for you........its almost Christmas and this time last year, you were with me, you and Lily laying on the floor at my feet.......I don't know what I'm gonna do on Jan. 31st........i'll get through it some how............Are you having fun at the bridge with all your new friends? I know you are,...........just remember that youre loved here on earth and I'll always have you in my heart.tucked away.........
I love you Abner and Miss you so unbelievablly
Loves to my sweet boy.......Mama
December 25,2011
Merry Christmas My baby boy..............I missed you so much today....last year, you were with me.....Awwww how sweet was that!!!!
I found myself alone with my thoughts today.......I would gaze out of the window and think of all the good times we had.........I loved you so very much Abner.........I've told people that I thought you would never die and I now know how true that statement is....I never thought you would leave me but you know what, You haven't left me, I've got you tucked so deep in my heart that no one or nothing can have this place, Its for my sweet Abner........
Have fun Baby, Mama is okay..........play like you never played before but keep all those kisses for me..........when we meet again...
I love you Abner.......Marry Christmas my sweet boy!!!
Love , Mama
December 29, 2011
Hi Mama,
I found myself alone on Christmas Day...........I was sitting on the sofa looking out and I missed you so much...I will never leave you Nab and I'll love you forever and ever and ever and ever.....all I can say is I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU.......... I know Baby that you couldn't live any longer, your little body just gave out and Mama understands....I just never thought of you leaving me........I wanted you to live forever......Selfish? You better believe it and I'm proud of it too........Aint no shame in my game!!
I love you Abner...........play Baby....Mama
January 4, 2012
Happy New Year My Baby Boy,
I love you last year and I love you more this year..........The holidays were just that A holiday...I love being around Jackson and Spencer and Rachel and Scott but I'm glad all that is over.....I thank My Good Lord that I made it without losing my cool.........I miss my Booner!! I'll have to face the first year anniversary of your leaving me..........I dont look forward to that....
I took Lily to a new doctor yesterday.He was such a good boy....He's fine Abner however, I dont think he feels good today...The vet is suppose to call me today for the results for his lab work, so I'll talk to her then..........If your ears were burning yesterday its because Mama was talking bout you.......I never get tired of telling anyone that will listen about my Abner..........I love you baby.....I'll go for now but will be back soon......Go play and have a good time with all your friends......loves to you, Mama
January 12, 2012
Its Thursday afternoon, and I'm still struggling..........I miss you so much Abner......Gosh...So VERY much..........I wont say good bye.........you're in my heart forever..........
January 22, 2012
Good sunday morning My sweet baby boy...........how is MY Abner today? Have you been playing? I bet you have..I haven't really being feeling rel good lately, I miss you booner!!!! I look out on the patio and youre not there.........remember when Mama would tkae her chair outside to read,,,,,you'd lay out there with me.I miss those times!
I love you Abner.........To the stars and the moon!
I love you and miss you, Mama
March4, 2012
My Sweet Little Abner,
Another birthday without you being here...... I miss you so very much!! The pain is still here Abner......I love you!
January 31, 2012
My Dearest Abner,
A year has come and went since you've been gone. I made it with the help from my friends and My Lord, Jesus Christ. I've missed you more than I ever thouhjt I could miss anyone. I still sing your favorite songs and I look up to the heavens and talk to you. I know you're whole and happy now, and I'm thankful for that, and I know youve made alot of friends. I guess I'm still kinda selfish because I want you with me. You take care baby and look for me because I WILL come and get you. I love you so much Abner!!!!
Your Mama Always, oxoxoxxoxoxoxoxo
Febuary 14, 2012
Happy Valentines Day Baby!!!
Gosh, I've made it one year and 14 days........I miss you Buttercup..........and I love you to the stars and moon and back!! I think I now realize that you're in a better place, I always knew that but I wanted you with me.........but if you were with me, we would have to give you shots and clean your eye out..........now, you whole and we dont have to do that anymore........And Abner, I can live with that!!
Lily and I always talk about you at night and I brush him and then he lies on his back...see that big ole belly.
We both love and miss you........I'm starting to walk each day to get more healthy and lose some of my " blue bell" weight!! LOL
You will always be my Valatine Baby, no one else can hold a candle to you!
February 18, 2012
My Darling Abner,
Its snuggling wheater Baby, Wanta snuggle? I miss you Napper!! I know you're having more fun that I am.......I love you my Friend, my everything........Mama
April 2, 2012
Hi My Little baby boy,
I miss you Abner!! I miss you like crazy.........Lily is fine, I was gone over the weekend and he went to the lodge...He was glad to see me this morning........I thought of you all weekend, just wanted to be with my boy! I'll write later...I love you! Mamax0x0x0xx0
I love you Abner, Give Coosie my love and give him a hug if thats permitted in Rainbow Bridge between cats and dogs.......... Love your Mama oxxoxoxoxoxox
February 25, 2012
My Dearest Abner,
I can't believe I made it through one year and 25 days...........My heart hasn't healed, it won't, I know that now. I miss you so much Abner.............Just wish we could snuggle and I sure would love to give you some luvvs.
I loce you Abner, As long as I live , there will never be another you.....God broke the mold when he gave me you.........
Play like you've never playes Nap, Be sweet and tell all your fur friends for me that I love you and I love them!!
Until next time my baby boy......Mamaxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
March 20, 2012
Hi My sweet Baby Boy,
I've missed you! I LOVE you!! I haven't felt real good these past few days......The pain in my heart is still there Abner!! I never ever thought it would hurt, as it does without you! I DO want you happy, well, all full again and jumping and playing, but I want you here with me too. I want you to watch for me Abner, When My God says its time, I WILL come get you, I promise that. It's rainy and alittle cool today.......just a depressing day for me.......I love you Abner.....Please believe that!
Loves from your mama.....xoxoxoxxoxoxoox
April 14, 2012
My Little Abner,
Gosh, Easter has come and passed........and I didn't visit you........Its hard to come to your site........My heart has NEVER hurt like it does now. I miss you Abner........I think of you daily, I still sing your songs and I still cry. Some days are better than others.......I have accepted that its not going to get any better so I'll just live with this pain, it reminds me of just how much I love you.
Lily is fine, we talk about you alot and he'll look around for you when I mention your name..He's good for me, I've come alot closer to him, hes such a sweet boy..I can still see both of you looking out the window for me in the evenings, you both were so cute........
Are you getting settled at The Rainbow Bridge? I know you've made some friends huh? You're kinda like your mama, you dont need many people around you.
Jackson and Spencer are getting big......Jackson is playing baseball and Spencer wants to too.
I'm gonna go now baby..........With a sugar and a peck........I love and miss you Mama xoxoxoxo
April 30, 2012
Hi My baby boy,
How is my Booner today? Have you been playing.........? Bet you have and I bet also that you have many friends.........I love you Abner............I feel guilty when I don't come see you but I still hurt alot, I still cry and I still love you!! I will never forget you... I can't I love you too much!! I'm going to go I can place some different things for you.....I'll come back more often baby...I LOVE you!!!!
xoxoxoxoxxooxxoxoxooxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoMama
May 12, 2012
Hey my baby boy!!!
I love you Booner.........I miss you Booner........It hurts to come here but I have alot of guilt if I don't so you win on this one..........Tomorrow will be Mother's Day........I will go to the beach and spend time with Rachel, Scott, Jackson and Spencer......Lily cries for you Booner..........I'll go to my grave hurting, I know this now, my heart will not heal.you're in my heart forever.........I smell you...I love you.......Mama
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