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Memories of Amanda

TO EVERTHING THERE IS A SEASON AND A TIME TO EVERY PURPOSE UNDER HEAVEN..... ECCLESIASTES 3: 1-8 My sweet Amanda Girl, It seems like only yesterday when you came into my life. You were brought to me at 6 mths old, when your previous owner could no longer care for you. You were full of energy, more than I had ever seen. I know you were testing me, to see if I too were going to give up on you. I never did, through all of your mischief I fell in love with you, I could see you only wanted to be loved. I believe once you saw you were you finally decided to accept me, from that moment on we were inseperatable. Your love and sweetness was simply "the best". It was pure,honest,and deeply unconditional. You loved us all in a way we all needed to be loved, myself and my Cammy. Our lives would forever be changed, and most certainly for the better. You loved life in a way I found beautiful and so extremely rare. You loved everyone you every met, and I find myself privledged and blessed, because I know YOU loved me most. You were my little follower, everywhere I went you had to be right next to me. I miss that so much my sweet girl,I miss that so much. I felt such love from you,and even now I feel it in my soul. You also loved my sweet boy Cammy.You took him under your wing, protected him,guarded him,watched over him,and the most important loved him more than your life. It was an incredible and amazing love, and I thank-you for the way you loved him. You always were all of our protector. You were also our "clown". With your silly "bronco"dance you did, your rolls on your back, your barking when we were fixing your meals. But you were also the sweetest girl I ever met. Your eyes would melt my heart everytime you would look at me with that sweet expression. I saw an incredible love in your eyes, I want to see it now. You had so many names, (like your brother Cammy) and came to every one. Our favorite Poot,or Poodles. Thinking back I think your were very seldom ever called Amanda. You gave my life meaning baby. I love and thank-you for that. I found a rare and everlasting love within you. I, my sweet girl, will always keep you in my heart,and love you forever and a day. I miss you in bed with me and pop. How big and empty the bed feels now, what I would give to have you next to me, snoring in my ear. This last year will forever be the worst year of my life. Last year I had surgery, you protected and watched over me during my recovery, like I was the most valuable person in your life. You stayed up with me when I couldn't sleep, followed me everywhere, and just simply showed me how deep again your love was. We also lost our sweet boy Cammy last September. It seems you took it hard,my baby girl. Over night you seemed to age, and a certaing sparkle in your eye disappeared. I tried to comfort you Angel,like you did me. I believe in my heart YOU sweet girl saved me through that time. It was you and you alone. But the grief and pain was to much for you. I believe your heart couldn't fight your illness the way we thought it should of. The night I lost you my precious girl simply did me in. It weighs heavy on my heart. Both of my "kids" gone in 6 mths. I know though my Angel you stayed as long as you could. On the night I lost you, I told you, it was ok to go and be with Cammy I would be alright, I know your were holding on for me. My sweet girl its ok that you wanted to go. That night at the ER I pray with my life the decision I made for you was right. I am having a hard time forgiving myself,even after the vet told me your were going right then. I just know how much you loved life and I'm not sure what YOU wanted me to do. Please Amanda if I did the wrong thing for you forgive me????? I feel in my soul you wanted to go be with our Cammy, and know that it is o:k. That night I lost you, in the ER there was this most amazing feeling in the room, a feeling I have never felt in my life, all you did for the 3 hours we were there, is stare off into the distant, not making eye contact with anyone there.I know now that amazing feeling I felt was a undescriable feeling of peace, our Cammy was there, he had come for you. I feel in some ways at peace for you and my boy. Your love for each other was the deepest and strongest I've ever seen. The only thing that helps me get by from day to day is to know, my sweet angel babies are together at last. "THERE YOUR ARE IN THE EARLY LIGHT OF DAY, THERE YOU ARE IN THE QUIET WORDS I PRAY.........EVERYTIME I TURN AROUND, WHEN I'M LOST AND WHEN I'M FOUND, LIKE AN ANGEL STANDING GUARD, THERE YOU ARE, EVERYTIME I TAKE A BREATH AND WHEN I FORGET TO BREATH, YOUR WATCHING OVER ME, THERE YOU ARE,WHEN I'M LOOKING FOR THE LIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT, SEARCHING FOR THE BRIGHTEST STAR, THERE YOU ARE.....M.MCBRIDE I love you my sweet angel girl with all of my heart and soul, for today, tomorrow, and always. Mom 11/24/05 My sweet Baby Girl, Happy Birthday !!! I pray you are having the best Birthday ever amongst the Angels and with our Cammy. I love you sweetness, more and more every day. And Happy Thanksgiving, my first without you. What I am most thankful for, still and forever, is you and Cammy. I miss you so. Be happy angel. Forever my love, Mom 12/25 Merry Christmas my sweet Amanda. This is my 1st Christmas in almost 14 years without you. I feel so alone at times esp. now, at this time of the year. I wrap presents on the floor, and miss the toenail marks you always left in the paper because you would walk across it. I miss everything about you. The only thing that gives me hope, I know, I'll see you again someday. I pray your Christmas amongst the Angels and God, was all I believe it to be. I love You my baby. Mom 1/1/06 Happy New Year baby Girl. I miss and love you more and more everyday. Be happy, play, no worries. Until, Mom. 3/2006 My little Angel Girl, It has been 1 year since you went to the bridge, went to be with our sweet Cammy. Not a second of a day goes by, I don't think of you. I carry you with me everywhere, deep in my heart. I love and miss you more than words can express. Even now my love for you only continues to grow. "THE ONLY THING THAT GIVES ME HOPE, IS I KNOW I'LL SEE YOU AGAIN SOMEDAY." K. Chesney I love you my sweet angel. I love you. Please also visit Cammy.

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