The story of my life is very plain to read|
It starts the day you came
And ends the day you leave
The story of my life begins and ends with you
The names are still the same
And the story's still the truth
(from Neil Diamond's The Story of My Life)
09/15/07 Bootsie's new birthday in heaven! I miss you my beautiful girl. I can't stop crying. This house is so empty without you. It will never be a "home". I carry your green blanket around with me, you know the one Daddy insisted we buy for you at Brookstone in the Danbury Fair Mall and cost $80. It was a Christmas present for you. Only the best for you!! I keep thinking you are going to jump up on the bed at night and sleep right next to me, where you always used to. I just want to hold you in my arms again. I love you Bootsie! I know Doris, Bert's mom, is sooo happy to see you again, with outstretched arms to embrace and greet you, but I am suffering. I hope you are telling her how much love I gave you. Bert still thinks you thought I was Doris. Bert would tell me how, after Doris passed away, you would still look for her around the house. But now you don't have to because the 2 of you are together once again. But you forgot to take me with you Bootsie!! Please come and get me!!! I need you! Probably more than you needed me.
I snipped some of your fur while we were saying our goodbyes to you in the vet's office so I would always have you with me. You have left an indelible mark on my heart. I have never felt as needed as you made me feel. There is a huge hole in my heart and nothing can fill it like the love and joy you gave me. Crazy cat! Do you remember when you used to run down the hall in our HOME in Valhalla for no reason? And all the times you would come into the T.V. room when you knew it was bedtime and look at us and it was like you were saying "Are you 2 coming to bed or what?" And then when we were ready to go to bed, you would do a sprint up the stairs and jump on the bed and assume your position right next to me. And in order to get to me, you would walk on top of daddy and look at him as if to say "get out of my way! i need to get over to mom!" (yea I know he was a big obstacle!) And I'm so sorry about all the times I would accidentally kick you off the bed if I were having a nightmare and my legs would jerk and there would be this loud "thud" on the floor. But you would come right back next to me. And every morning Bert would tell me that you crawled right on top of me and did your "kneading" and then fell asleep. And what about all those times when, in the middle of the night, you would go downstairs and then come back up, and as soon as you jumped on the bed, you would start purring as you came closer to me and would lick my arm and elbow as if to say "I'm here, and I need some lovin." No wonder I have bags under my eyes! You were sooo loyal to me Bootsie. You loved being outside, especially on the chaise lounge on the deck. And then when we made the trek down to Florida this past December you were such a trooper. You loved being out on the lanai and would spend all day lazing around out there. Bootsie you were an amazing friend and companion. I'm sorry you got so sick with cancer. I tried so hard to make you better. I knew I had to at least bring you back to Florida where you enjoyed the warm sunshine. So, on July 24th we hopped in the CRV, just you and me, and headed down here. We were fortunate to have Dr. Iulo in Venice, FL as your vet. He and his staff (especially Mandy and Jen) are very compassionate individuals. He said to me today that he was proud to have me as a client and that if he were a cat, he would want me as his mom. I'm dying w/out you Bootsie. Baby! Mushy head!
9/16/07 Bootsie, I didn't sleep at all last night. I was waiting for you to jump up on the bed and sleep next to me. But you never came. And when me and Bert and grandpa went out this morning and came back, I instinctively looked down at your litterbox but it was empty. I keep looking around the house for you. The house is empty Bootsie. Remember how you used to love it when we rubbed your chin and the sides of your mouth? And how I would put my hand out in a fist and you would come head first into it, like a head butt.
There are some nice people who have visited your site baby and signed the guestbook. When we go back to NY in October, we are going to bury your ashes next to Doris b/c I feel it is where you should be (but when I die, I want to be buried with you guys). I saved your food dish and water dish and I will put them with you so you will never be hungry or thirsty, and I have one of your toys and I will bury that too so you can always play, but most importantly, I have the picture of you and me in the Blue Ridge Mountains when we went back home to NY in May so you will always remember me beautiful girl. I ordered over $200 worth or pictures of you yesterday and I am going to have Bert take the picture that is in our bedroom down and put yours up there so you can watch over us. I love you!!!! I can't wait to see you again.
9/16/07 Bootsie, can you feel my tears on your beautiful coat? I am so lost without you. Remember how you would sit in front of the fridge to let us know you wanted your fresh maple-glazed turkey or ham? I think I treated you better than I treat daddy, but that's ok. I wouldn't do anything differently.
9/17/07 Bright eyes burning like fire
Bright eyes how can you close and fail?
How can the light that burned so brightly suddenly burn
9/18/07 Hi Bootsie, are you having a good time with Doris and all your new furbaby friends? Bootsie, do you remember how, whenever you were cleaning yourself, I would put my face next to yours, and you would stop and lick my face, at least 20 licks! I never needed to exfoliate my skin, I had you! And all the times I would hold you in my arms and go up to daddy and say "Bert, does she look happy?" And he would crack up. Meanwhile you would have this look on your face like "enough already, put me down." I MISS YOU. DADDY MISSES YOU.
9/19/07 Bootsie, I just wander aimlessly around the house. My heart hurts. Your pictures should be arriving in the mail shortly. I wish you would send me a sign that you are ok. I love you baby. I miss those piercing green eyes. I miss the love that you gave me. Daddy misses teasing you. I used to love it whenever you swatted him with your claws. Remember how, when you wanted to go outside at our home in Valhalla, you would come upstairs at 5:30 a.m. and try to get a "meow" out. And I would get up and you would charge downstairs into the dining room, shaking your little butt, and I couldn't get that door open fast enough for you. I hope the meadow where you are now resembles our backyard. You were so happy there. Dr. Iulo and his staff sent us a sympathy card. I don't want to see your picture on this website; I want to see you in person!!!
9/20/07 Bootsie, is it possible people can drown in their own tears? Because if it is, I just may. I printed out the "guest book" for daddy to read and he came over and said to me "I think Pat Lively summed it up by saying "they never leave us, we just don't see them anymore. their spirit still lives on." We have been receiving sympathy cards from friends. We both still expect to see you jump on the bed. I LOVE YOU BABY!!!
9/21/07 Hey Bootsie baby, how are you? It's so sad here; nighttime is still the worst; it's not like daddy purrs when he is lying in bed next to me. Your purrs were so rich and throaty.
9/22/07 Bootsie, I can't believe it's been a week since you left us. Even daddy said it was a "long week." I think he sheds tears when I am not in his presence. I'm sorry we didn't stay with you in the room when you were getting your final injection but I didn't want to see your tiny body go limp and it brought up too many unpleasant memories for daddy when he and Tommy had to bring Chester in to be put down. I just hope Dr. Uilo stayed with you and comforted you. Please forgive me Bootsie. I LOVE YOU!
9/23/07 To know you Bootsie is to have been loved unconditionally. You and I, we were inseparable baby. Please put in a good word for me. XOXOXO
9/26/07 Hi Bootsie, yesterday was Daddy's birthday and it wasn't the same without you here to help celebrate. In the card I gave him I said to him that you wished him a happy birthday from Rainbow's Bridge. He misses you so much! XOXOXO
10/2/07 Hi Bootsie, beautiful girl! We miss you so much. We picked up your ashes today; Mandy and I both had tears in our eyes. I thought I was going to keep some of them for myself but I can't bear to open the little box. Instead, we will bury all of them with Doris. I still wish I could be there with you. XOXOXO
11/14/07 BOOTSIE I MISS YOU SO MUCH! I'm so sorry I haven't written in a while. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you. I'm still waiting for you to jump on the bed at night and snuggle with me. We went home in October and buried your ashes with Doris. And when we go home next week I'm going to go visit you and spend some time at your grave site. I opened the envelope from the company who cremated you and inside was a beautiful poem and it goes like this:
Farewell, Master, yet not farewell. Where I go, ye, too, shall dwell. I am gone, before your face. A moment's time, a little space. When ye come where I have stepped, ye will wonder why ye wept.
Please, please give me a sign that you are ok Bootsie. I can't wait until we are reunited. xoxoxoxo mom
4/23/08 HI BOOTSIE! I know, it's been a long time since I have been on Rainbow's Bridge, but your pictures are all over the house so I see you in every room and I talk to you all the time. And, I can feel your spirit here. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. XOXOXO
6/17/08 Hi my precious girl! I went to visit you when we were in NY earlier this month. There was a heat wave so I couldn't linger and talk to you in length like I wanted but I think you knew I was there because when I went home someone else had signed your guestbook that same exact day. I'm so lonely without you Boostie. xoxoxoxo
8/25/08 Hi Baby! I miss you so much! On our way home from NY in early August, we stopped in South Carolina and it was the same exit you and I stopped at on our way down here. It brought back too many memories for me and I started bawling to Bert about how much I missed you. PLEASE ASK GOD TO LET ME BE WITH YOU AGAIN SOON! I MISS MY BUDDY! XOXOXOXOXO
9/15/08 Happy 1st Birthday at Rainbow's Bridge Bootsie. I can't believe it's been a year. It hasn't really gotten any easier. I still long to see you and hold you and have you sleep next to me at night, purring so loudly. Like a friend said about her cat, I feel the same about you: YOU ARE MY HOME! xoxoxoxo
9/15/09 Happy 2nd Birthday Bootsie!!
Like a comet
Blazing 'cross the evening sky
Gone too soon
Like a rainbow
Fading in the twinkling of an eye
Gone too soon
Shiny and sparkly
And splendidly bright
Here one day
Gone one night
Like the loss of sunlight
On a cloudy afternoon
Gone too soon
Like a castle
Built upon a sandy beach
Gone too soon
Like a perfect flower
That is just beyond your reach
Gone too soon
Born to amuse
To inspire to delight
Here one day
Gone one night
Like a sunset
Dying with the rising of the moon
Gone too soon
Gone too soon
9/3/10 Hi Bootsie! I miss you baby. Hard to believe it is going to be 3 years since you passed over to Rainbow's Bridge. When we were in NY back in May this year, I went to visit you at the cemetery, like I always do, and placed a bouquet of flowers. Then,when I went on to the computer the next day, someone had visited your site and signed your guest book. I took that as a sign from you. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3/19/11 Hi Bootsie! Not a day goes by that I don't think about you and miss you, Bootsie. A good friend of mine recently lost her fur baby, Sophie. I mentioned Rainbow's Bridge to her as she hadn't heard of it which prompted me to come and visit your site. I told her you would be at the entrance to Rainbow's Bridge to welcome her in. I sent her a sympathy card and in it I stated "when a pet dies, a part of us dies with them." :-( I miss you, Boots!
9/15/11 Hi baby girl! I'm still here, thinking about you every day (how can I not....we have soooo many pictures of you around the house...I wouldn't have it any other way). Today is your 4th anniversary at Rainbow's Bridge. I miss you, buddy. The other day I took out the fur that I snipped when we had to let you go. I will be sure to visit you when we are up in NY in November. Fall was always such a great time when we lived in Valhalla. I wish you would send me a sign, Bootsie. I want to know that things are well with you. MOMMY MISSES YOU AND LOVES YOU!!!!!
9/15/12 Hi beautiful Bootsie! 5 years and it still hurts as much as it did the day we said goodbye. I see your beautiful face each day first thing when I wake up and last thing before I go to sleep. How I wish you were here in person. We were up in NY over the summer and of course, I went and put flowers at your grave. I volunteer at the Cat Depot in Sarasota and they have so many beautiful cats; several torties, but none as beautiful as you. Sambuca, Smokey, and Ernest have helped to ease the loneliness of not having you around. Ernest is most like you...so sweet. I love you Bootsie!!! xoxoxo mom
9/15/13 Hi beautiful girl......I can't believe it has been six years since you crossed over to Rainbow's Bridge. I was thinking if it hadn't been for you, I would never know the love of a cat. We'll be in NY in November and I will be visiting your grave with some flowers. I miss you sooo much! xoxoxo mom