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12 YEARS AGO, I WENT TO RESCUE A KITTY. HE IN TURN RESCUED ME. I WAS SO SCARED, SINCE HE WAS MY FIRST CAT. I EVEN WENT BACK TO THE CLINIC, STATING THAT I COULD NOT DO THIS. BUT, THE NEXT DAY, I WENT BACK AND SAID, I WANT HIM BACK, AFTER SEEING HIS LITTLE FOOD AND WATER BOWL. HE WAS AFRAID AT FIRST, HIDING UNDER THE BED, DUG A HOLE IN THE BOX SPRING. I COULD NOT FIND HIM FOR DAYS. HE WOULD COME OUT TO EAT THE TUNA. ONE DAY, I THOUGHT HE GOT IN THE WALL HEATER, AND I WAS CRYING. I CALLED MY PARENTS TO HELP ME LOOK FOR HIM. THEY COULD NOT FIND HIM EITHER. I FOUND HIM HIDING IN THE CLOSET. HE EVENTUALLY CAME OUT ON HIS OWN. I LOVED HIS HEAD BOPS. HE WOULD WALK ON ME, WHEN GETTING ON AND OFF THE BED. HE WOULD PLAY WITH TWIST TIES, PAPER AND JUMP IN THE CARDBOARD BOXES. HE HAD A COUPLE OF FAVORITE TOYS. ONE WAS A CARROT, A LONG ANIMAL PRINT TAIL AND THE DANCER WHICH WAS A WIRE WITH BITS OF CARDBOARD AT THE END. HE WOULD PAW AT ME, WHEN HE WANTED TO BE PETTED. I LOVED WHEN HE DID THE RABBIT KICKS WHEN PLAYING. HE WOULD HIDE AND HE WOULD JUMP OUT WHEN PLAYING WITH ME. CALEB WAS VERY INDEPENDENT AND DID NOT LIKE TOO MANY PEOPLE. HE WOULD ANSWER BACK, WHEN I TALKED TO HIM. I EVEN BOUGHT HIM A WATER DISPENSER, THINKING THIS WOULD WORK WHILE I WAS AWAY FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS. HE SPLASHED OUT ALL THE WATER WITH HIS PAWS UNTIL IT WAS EMPTY. THAT DID NOT WORK, OBVIOUSLY. HE WOULD CLAW THE CORNER OF THE BED, THEN JUMP ON. I HAD HIM SHAVED DOWN, AS HE HAD BAD MATS. HE WAS OVERWEIGHT AND DIAGNOSED WITH HYPERTHYROIDISM. HE HID THE FACT THAT HE DID NOT TAKE THE PILLS GIVEN TO HIM. I TRIED EVERYTHING BUT HE JUST KNEW WHAT THEY WERE. I EVEN TRIED THE TRANSDERMAL GEL FOR HIS EARS. I AM REGRETTING THAT DECISION, AS I THINK IT MADE HIM ILL. HE STOPPED EATING FOR SOME REASON. I HAD BLOOD TESTS AND AN ULTRASOUND DONE ON HIM. EVEN A SAMPLE OF HIS LIVER TAKEN TO THE LAB. NOTHING WAS FOUND. IT WAS RECOMMENDED TO DO AN ENDOSCOPY. I DID NOT WANT TO PUT HIM THROUGH THAT, BUT NOW I WISH I HAD. I KNEW IT WAS TIME TO SAY GOODBYE, WHEN HE CLAWED THE BED, BUT DID NOT JUMP ON. HE STAYED UNDER THE TABLE THE WHOLE DAY, NOT MOVING. I CARRIED HIM OUT TO THE CAR, CRYING AND SAID GOODBYE TO MY BABY BOY. I WILL CHERISH THE TIME AND MEMORIES WE HAD, BUT FELT HE WAS TAKEN TOO SOON. I AM DOUBTING MY CHOICE TO PUT HIM DOWN, EVERYDAY, THINKING I COULD HAVE DONE MORE FOR HIM. TODAY IS ONE MONTH AGO, I MADE THE DIFFICULT, HEARTBREAKING DECISION TO PUT YOU TO SLEEP. I DID NOT KNOW WHAT MORE I COULD HAVE DONE FOR YOU. I COULD HAVE HAD MORE TESTS DONE BUT WOULD THAT HAVE PROLONGED THE SUFFERING? I WILL NEVER KNOW THE ANSWER TO THAT. ALL I KNOW IS I DID THIS OUT OF LOVE FOR YOU CALEB. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU EVERYDAY. LOVE YOUR MOM AUG 4TH- HI CALEB. I MEANT TO REMIND YOU THAT YOU HAVE FAMILY AT THE RAINBOW BRIDGE: THOR, GINGER, TIGER, KATIE, PADDINGTON, BINGO, VIDA BLUE, WINSTON, EMILY AND HUMES. ALSO, MORE FRIENDS AT THE RAINBOW BRIDGE ARE WAITING TO MEET YOU. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU EVERYDAY. XOXO March 2, 2017-I still get tears in my eyes reading your memorial BEAKY BOO. June 29,2018- Caleb, I am still hurting over not being able to save you. I love you and I have regrets. I love Calee and Chance, and I hope to be better in your memory. I miss your head bops and you sleeping above my head. Also your chattering. I miss you Oct 18,2018 -still hurts Caleb. I love you and I feel that I failed you. I will do my best with Calee and Chance. Merry Christmas baby boy. I love you and miss you. Still on the verge of tears when I think of not being able to save you. May 18, 2022 Hi Baby Boy. I miss you so much. It hurts to type this. I wish I could have done things differently. I love Calee and Chance but I have so many reqrets. I think I could have saved you if I had done more. June 30, 2023 |
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