You turned my ordered life upside down when you entered it, and turned my life upside down when you so suddenly left it.

I knew you eight short months. I wish I had known you at the start of your life. I wish we could have had more time.

We went through a journey together, and became closer every day. I miss you and your quirks every day: the way you used to wake me up every morning, our walks (and your reluctance to walk - you were quite the celebrity : )), how you used to look at me and protect me, our sofa times, your itchy bottom, your balcony sunbathing, your night time rituals, you.

Your home is not a home without you. I often look for you but you, but you are not there, and yet it is full of my memories of you.

I am sorry I couldn't save you. Know that if love could have kept you alive, you would have lived forever. I am sorry I was too late to say goodbye to you and that I was not with you when you passed. Know that my heart was with you.

I hope you are not upset or angry with me. I loved you very much. I hope that you will look for me when I pass. I will look for you. I love you Duchess.

08.01.21 - I set you free today my lovely. We took a motor boat (Duchess style) to a flowing stretch of sea water near a beautiful reserve where I have seen flamingos in the past. I left you with a little quartz angel to protect you, a photo of you and message from me and pink roses. Rest In Peace my darling. Be happy and free. I love you xxx

13.01.21 - I buried the plastic bag in our balcony today - the balcony you loved so much. I left you with a little quartz angel to protect you, a photo of you and message from me and planted a beautiful pink gerbera on top with scattered seeds all around. Rest In Peace my darling. Be happy and free. I love you xxx

19.11.21 - I went to see you today my darling. I scattered some of your balcony flowers and pink roses and left you with a message in a jar. There were flamingoes today. You left me one year ago today; you remain everywhere but nowhere. I miss you every day. I love you xxx

19.11.22 - I went to see you today my darling. I scattered roses and left you with a message in a jar. There were flamingoes today. You left me two years ago today. When I think of you or look for you, I often kiss the air; these kisses are for you. I miss you every day. I love you xxx

19.11.23 - I went to see you today my beautiful darling. I scattered roses and petals and left you with a message in a jar. There were flamingoes and flying fish today. You left me three years ago today. I miss you every day. I love you xxx