Thursday Oct 22, 2009 we lost our fur baby Little George, I have come back to Rainbow Bridge because I was here 2 1/2 years ago when I lost my Gilbert.This is the only place I had found confort.I want to and have to talk about my Georgie. He died 12 hours after going to the vet and I truly believe after getting the wrong treatment. He was having some weakness with his back legs but that was all. Nothing was said to us about him being terminally ill.He passed that morning in my arms in about 3 minutes.I am not trying to put blame on anyone because of my grief but a cat mommy just knows and I know in my heart and soul that is what happened. I feel so guilty about bringing him to the vet. Anyway let me tell you a little bit about my Georgie. He was black and white with the cutest little pink button nose.He was 15 years old. He was the sweetest cat I have ever had and I have had cats all my life.He never needed alot. He just loved being warm and would always find the warmest spot in the house.Our day would start out with him jumping on my bed for his morning hugs and kisses then he would look at me with this look on his face which I knew now it was time he wanted to be fed. He always followed me around like a little puppy,much more so the last few months. Maybe he knew something that I did not. As soon as I sat down to read a paper he had to come up on my lap and of course I always let him.He could hear the sound of cold cut paper being opened a mile away and you knew in a minute he would be standing there waiting for you to give him some.
When I lost my Gilbert it was terrible but I still had my Georgie. Now they are both gone and the house feels so empty and lonely.I really don't know what I will do with out him.He was my everything.
My baby,friend,companion.I feel like I am just going through the motions of life in a fog. The sun shines, people go about their lives,
and I wonder how can this be when my life just came to a shocking halt.I feel his absence right down to my bones.He was a real mommy's boy and always wanted me right with him. I just pray that he knew I was holding him and kissing his little head when he passed.I hope he is with his brother Gilbert now and they are happy and playing together like they always did.Right now my heart is breaking so bad
and the tears keep coming. I know it is not even a week yet since he left us so maybe I am expecting too much too soon. I just hope I can find some kind of comfort soon.He will always be a part of me. He took part of my heart with him when he left that I know I will never get back. I always said good night to his brother Gilbert and now I say good night to the both of them. It is really not enough I just want to hold him so bad it hurts.After Gilbert left us we left everything in the house in place for Georgie such as dishes, beds, litter boxes etc. but now I look in those places and they are empty.
It breaks my heart.How do you get over this? Whenever I came home he was right there at the door waitting for me and I would pick him up an kiss him hello. Now I hate it when I go out because I know when I get home he won't be there. He is buried in my back yard right next to his brother Gilbert with a little pumpkin and mums on his grave.
I look out my window and I just want to go out there and dig him up just to hold him again.Go to sleep my angel,rest in peace. Mommy loves you.Until we meet again.
Love Mommy